i'm drying my hands...OHHH YEAH!

Remember when you graduate from elementary or secondary school? They always ask you what you want to be when you grow up so that they can place it under your picture in the yearbook, almost everyone in my batch when I graduated wanted to be a doctor. Yeah, right.
Haha, I did too. And thinking back, what I really wanted to be was, Sailormoon. Lolz.

So, now, doing the type of work I'm doing with a Bachelor's degree...it kind of pulls the self esteem down, especially when people crack jokes about your work and the people you're taking care of are ungrateful ingrates.

But really, I don't think I ever cared for physical therapy. not while i was scraping through passing my academics and well, pulling off my internship with pure day to day patience...knowing that somehow, it'll be all over.

Now, all I have is a diploma. Packed away in my mothers' suitcase, in case I get around to really studying for the board exams and paying for the credential review.

But recently, I've been thinking about my career options, looking at how the economy is all f'd up right now, and peering through my future, i see that there are options and there are goals. It's just that i need the means to start, or shall I say, the proper boost to start down life.

I have the reasons, and sure hella have all the 'inspiration'...to push me down the road to physical therapy unkown. It's just that, THOSE would not be for me.
I'll be glad to have my start-up in life, and also the means to really help my family already.
But the ultimate question is; would it be something i will be happy doing for the rest of my life?
It pains me not being able to be what my family needs now, but then somewhere down the road, I just know, it'll pain me more not being able to do something for myself too.
And in the process, I'll be bitter and cynical, and would be blaming everyone around me for not being happy.

So, hopefully.. I'll get to save up enough for me to be able to study again or set up my business.
Here's some that I envision myself doing in my mid thirties:
~Being a pre-school teacher( I still want to take up SPED).
~Owning property in the Philippines that I can rent out.
~Owning that Coffee Shop/bookstore/Filipino Store my mom, sister and I talked about.
~Having a small boutique in the Philippines where I can sell shoes, clothes and other thingamajigs I can come up with.
~And my ultimate want: Being a wife and a mother.

I have a lot of wants, and i guess in life, that's the wrong reason to be driven...but then, isn't this why we're all breathing, and getting up every morning?